“靜﹐妳回來喇~妳的Raymond在外面等了妳有個幾鐘喇~”
“嗯﹐我看到他﹐沖完涼我會跟他出去﹔楓今晚我不能陪妳吃晚飯喇~”
“沒問題﹐妳先去解決妳的問題吧~”
我無言只是點頭明實﹐就走進房裡準備洗澡﹔然後就和Ray出去。
一路上我跟Ray都沒有交談﹐以防導致Ray無法專心駕車。我要Ray先去Wal-Mart因為我的手錶壞了而需要買新的。我就選擇了一隻Casio防水Digital錶﹐Ray 說什麼都不肯讓我付款﹔他說這隻錶就擋是他送我的 “道歉錶” 。我沒他辦只好接受了他的好意﹐但心始終過意不去所以我也買了隻男裝錶送給他。過後我和Ray 就去 “CHILLS” 用晚飯﹐
“Ray…”
“Ya”
“I think we just be common friend will better for you and I……”
他聽了突然靜了沒聲出。
“Ray….I means……..”
“I know what you mean, don’t need to clarify further; but this is not the point
that I asked you out tonight, at least this is not the answer I want.”
“….”
“You can’t just stop seeing me for days , hide away from me, and then just ask to be common friend.”
“But that what I think will be fair to you.”
“Fair? I didn’t ask to be fair. I don’t see the need of it.”
“but……..”
“Ya, we have different perception on your work at Highway; but I don’t see that serious until causing you to tell me that you just want to be friend now.”
“Ray…you’re good man…..is just…”
“just what? I don’t understand….I don’t fucking understand you, Wil.”
“Is my own fault, ok Ray. By becoming back your common friend will lessen the stress between us. Further you can give a chance to try out with Christine.”
“Wil, I really don’t understand you, you’re pushing me away after you started working in that fucking butch pub. I can’t accept this.”
“Ray…can you claim down? Otherwise everyone else will be staring at you.”
“I don’t care……tell me are you turning to be one of them?”
“What do you mean?”
“I mean…….are you becoming gay?”
“Ray….you can’t just becoming gay….please.”
“So are you telling me that you’re gay all this while.”
“No….Ray…….I was not…..”
“WAS NOT…so you are now??”
“Ray…..I am not sure….OK? I really don’t……OK??”
“Fine. But I just want you to think about what you want.”
“Ray...so ….”
“Wil…so I think we both need a break from us.”
“Ok.”
“But I just can’t believe this is happening.”
“Ray…I am sorry.”
“Wil…only at this moment we are in the same perception.”
這一頓飯我和Ray誰都無法吃下去﹐於是我就要求Ray送我回去。這一路我們就變得更沒有話題﹐只想快點到家那麼就可以下車。一到家﹐我就馬上上樓去。
一進了門﹐就看見房裡的燈突然亮了。
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